Highschool bestfriend wedding

My highschool friend is married! and i got to be the bridesmaid :-)

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There are time when i don't even know what happened to myself. When i suddenly feel sad for no reason. When i suddenly feel that no one care about me. That no body love me. I feel the pain that i know it don't exist. I made it up. All of it.

But when it happened, where are the one who i love? where are u? Even daddy leave me and never come back. Who will console me when the tears falling gracefully through my cheek?

I still searching for myself. I don't remember where i put the old me. The one with the strongest heart and never cry. Can i find it back?

To those who i love so deeply, do you even see that im not happy? you don't, do you? And if you ever know you don't even care rite? You are assuming that i am strong enough to let it go. Do u even realize that i really need u in my life? The effort and the sacrifices that i made, do u even see it? I guess u don't.

Because if u do, you are the one who come to me with wide open arms to hug me, to protect me and wipe all my tears. You hate tears rite? Well i hate crying all because of u!

To whom it may concern, sometimes someone did someting on purpose. Look beyond the wall of my human flesh and touch my heart. It stop beating for the name of love.

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the upside down house

i am to lazy to write about this as my previous post had some difficulty. it's a very long one actually but the blogger droid dont post in correctly. so just take a look at my pictures.

place: the upside down house, tamparuli.

entry fee: rm10 (adult) rm5 (kids 5 & above)

facillities: cafe, toilet, parking lot

get 25% discount cupon for a group of 4 & above for the souvenirs.

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Celebrating our 2 years of togetherness this month :-)

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My man is so not good with words. He only say the 3 words once a week. Haha.. But i still love u with all my heart :-)

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Random

Just downloaded blogger-droid for my convinient to update this boring blog. I am one lazy girl. My name is almost sound like the word procrastinate. Not much happened today. Just hanging around at kampung, and do nothing.

Oh, i bought my first lipstick in nude colour. At least i think it's nude. Never use lipstick before, lip gloss is my saviour.

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The day i lost my hero

on 16th december 2011 i lost my true hero. The man who love me, the man who saves me, the man who taught me everything in life, the man i called my dad.

seeing his stiffed body lying there with his pale skin made my tears running heavily. i seriously don't know what to feel that time as i was so suprised because it happened in a sudden. in a blink of the eyes.

i can't believe it was my very own father. i was praying to Allah to give his mercy coz i wasn't ready to let my daddy go. but who am i to dispute The Almighty. all i can do is let go and pray for my dad.

dad, i miss u so much. sometimes i even forget that u wasn't here anymore. as u know, i always need u everyday. im sorry if i ever make u feel sad or angry or dissapointed. i try my best to make u proud and i know u are proud with ur kids.

rest in peace dad. you are very near to Allah now. and if u can see me now, it's still hard for me to cope with life. as my life always have u in it. im not fine dad. i am really not fine. i have to pretend so mum wouldn't cry. here in my bed i cry for u everynight. even while praying my tears can't stop pouring.

But i will remain calm and be strong even it takes years to do that coz i know you don't like to see me this way. I love you dad. Forever.